MournfulLaughter

I've started at the bottom and struggled for the top every time I'm halfway there I constantly drop. The harder I've tried the more I failed and somebody's gotta be there to pick up the trail. My existence is wholesome n' unfulfilled cuz every time I'm there I lack the skills. [CHORUS] I'm not gonna sit I'm not gonna wait for all them haters out there who can't seal the fate of a person so strong determined and bold cuz I'm not gonna sell out just to be sold [END CHORUS] All those people out there who wanna talk this and that are the people who gonna be with you at your back. You gotta move hard you gotta move fas

I know that you've gazed along the current wondering which way the water ripples How fast the current takes you along in it's Journey. So many times you've wondered What that water feels like in the palm of your hand How fast it will dribble away and become one with everything. Sometimes letting the water slip through your fingers is like letting go a piece of heaven you never knew that you had until you feel the sweet air against your palm. The tips of your toes feel the coolness assessing the situation at foot the slight drag trying to pull you onward but it's not strong enough. The thousand glittering splashes rise above T

I see them everyday the swagger in their step and the way their lips move to form words into secrets and whisper them into the ears of those who would speak them. I see them every night the way they sway on their feet and the way their voices carry to call the others to them and grab them in their arms as if they were really friends. I see them every morning the hate in their eyes and the way they speak to form words into pain and yell them into the faces of those who caused the suffering. I see them the way their colors show and the way the flaunt their flaws to put on their airs and make themselves indestructable beca

Thump...thump...thump...thump My feet beat against the pavement Sweat beads across my forehead Arms pumping against my sides Body cutting the wind In...out...In...out...In...out warm air fills my cheeks lungs expand to allow oxygen heart pulsing against my breast harder to take in Faster...faster...faster...faster pace increases as much as pain jarring vibrations in the knee muscles cramping sweat under the knee Cheering...Cheering...Cheering...Cheering Only voices Loud voices Calling my name

I have decided upon many things in my short life on earth. Most of which don't make sense but yet I did them anyways. There has never been a time when I felt as if the world were my oyster. Instead I treated all those golden opportunities with cautious hope. When I learned to believe nothing is certain I felt myself grow. And as I'm becoming more mature I understand that I know nothing. Now when the news flashes on my tv I don't feel compelled to change the channel. I learn something new and helpful every day though sometimes it scares me. When I see children in the park on a saturday morning it all feels so far away. I

The cold of the air ain't nothin compared to the chill in my heart I'm frozen from the inside ice melting down my spine tingles and stings the skin. Icicles play light across the face glazed eyes search the day frozen to an eternity of preserving life that turned cold in my veins stopped the rush the adrenaline I'm stuck in a glacier of pain chizled to a replica of the hurt that has been skulpted everyone can see it all No one will touch me afraid they'll turn blue thoughts of warmth have dominated my subconcieous into thinking things, that maybe I'm okay I'll resurface whole and alive I won't be contained in the ice Pa

When I look at you I see everything i'm not In your eyes I'm just a little kid When I look at you I know what you're thinking That in your eyes I'm just a little bit of nothing When I look at you I can see your dissapointment In your eyes I'm just not worth it When I look at you everything comes back to you That in your eyes I'm not what I was meant to be Sometimes I wish I could be your perfect little angel I wish sometimes I could be the apple in your eyes Sometimes I think That maybe I could be that person I wish that I thought that I actually had a chance Sometimes I wish that at least once you meant what y

Maybe one day when I grow up I'll look at the world and laugh And one day when I discover who I am I'll laugh But before that day I have to realize I'm simply growing but I'm laughing After I'm done laughing I'll cry For all those times I wished I wasn't who I am I'll cry for all those people I hurt all because I can't do things right When I understand I can't be everything you want Maybe I'll start laughing When I understand I can be what I want instead Maybe I'll stop crying And then.... I'll smile.

You can always count on me to be around To help you back up all the times you fall down And to wipe away the shame When you're not the one to blame You can always count on me to smile To let you know I'll be here for a while And to wipe away your tears When you have nothing left to fear You can always count on me to be there To help you decide what's fair And to remind you of who you are No matter how far gone you may think you are I will always be here for you through the good times and the bad you will always be one of the few that can actually make me sad I will always hold you close when you feel like pulling away I'll a